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06 February 2010 @ 12:33 am

A Sad Week in Leafs Nation...

Man...

My sadness with the Leafs pales in comparison to what Brian Burke must be going through, but I shall mention them anyway, starting with the worst first...

I can't believe his son is dead. i mean, I know i didn't know him or anything, but he was going to do so much good for the sports/world in general and then this happens. It just makes you wonder why, well me anyway.

Secondly, my beloved Matt Stajan has been traded. I knew it was coming, but this soon? Why now? Why ever? At least he got traded within canada and isn't THAT far, but *sigh*, watching hockey, or the Leafs for that matter just doesn't seem the same. Where's my number 14? Bah...at least I have Giguere to semi-love...*sigh*

And finally the time of my Leafs skate got changed and they're combining mine with 2 other times. Joy...Not a big deal, but bah, just adds insult to injury.

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24 October 2009 @ 08:57 pm

Don't you changin' for me...

So I'm sitting here updating as I'm waiting for the third period of the Leaf game to start and although we are not winning (of course), I'm happy to report that we are only losing 2-1. Against a team like Vancouver I'd say that's impressive, what is not impressive however is the fact that we got FIVE penalties in a row which led to Vancouver’s two goals....sigh. We were playing so well during the first half of the game too. Oh well, I'm expecting another loss.

Today is Andrew's birthday and we went out for dinner with his family last and it was awesome to see everyone again and strangely enough not awkward, That's probably because none of them know that we broke seven months ago and that could be because we don't act broken up at all. Not to mention we stayed up until 5 am playing Wii and watching Transformers 2 (which I loved by the way). Although I am not thrilled with our current situation and as pathetic as it sounds I'm willing to wait as long as it takes for him to be ready to marry me, within reason, and that in itself sounds ridiculous I know, but he's the love of my life, so what can I do?

School is awesome and settling down and I'm doing a lot better than I did in college which is strange. I've received two out of my three mid terms and I got 78% on my rhetoric exam and 82.5% on my brit lt exam (one of the highest marks in the class, hells yes). I have one more to get back, and unfortunately it's the one I fear the most. The prof is completely unreadable and it also doesn't help that he pretty much hates the class because we never participate, but that's because he shoots us down every time we do, so who knows. Wish me luck.

I ate Burger King today. That, my LJ friends, was a bad idea. My stomach has been effed ever since and I pretty much just feel like balls. The game is back on however so I shall update again soon:) Hope you're all well!

Current Mood:

lethargic

Current Music: Lonely, Lonely-TBS

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16 October 2009 @ 12:09 am

So thanks to the wonderful Livejournal community I now have a BSB that wasn't on the album and it describes how I feel right now to a tee. And before I do my usual of posting the lyrics I thought I'd update everyone on my life.

I completed my first two university midterms on Wednesday and they were well...interesting....The first one seemed way too easy and the second one consisted over one quote and underneath that said discuss. I really have no clue how I did on either on them so we shall see I guess. My worst midterm is coming up on Tuesday and I am much scared.

The Leafs. I don't think there is enough angry words in the English language to express my feelings so I just won't. Being a Leaf fan is a sad exisistence these days...

In happy news my Three Days Grace tickets came on the mail today...YAYA!!!!!!! I'm so friggin excited!!:D

Anyway I think it's lyrics time:)

( Flatlined... )

Current Location: Waterlooooo

Current Mood:

calm

Current Music: On without You-BsB

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29 September 2009 @ 12:50 am

That's right, I made a 3DG display pic with TBS lyrics.

I'm so badass.

Current Location: Home

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chipper

Current Music: Swing-TBS

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22 September 2009 @ 11:28 am

Wow,

This CD is amazing. It has so many different feels to it. I love it. I can sense some Nirvana influences and that just makes me so happy.

Now the next step: TOUR!!! They haven't announced any dates yet, but I'm so excited to let loose and mosh my life away:D

Sometimes I wonder about me and my music tastes. I mean a Jason Mraz concert made me appreciate life and I was all super happy and now thinking of a Three Days Grace concert, I can't wait to yell and scream about how much life can suck.

You guys really need to give this album a serious listen. It's called Life Starts Now.

Tags: music, three days grace

Current Mood:

ecstatic

Current Music: Bitter Taste-3DG

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20 September 2009 @ 12:10 am

I can't begin to tell you how friggin' excited I am for one very amazing reason: Between the days of Sept 22-Oct 9, three amazing artists come out with BRAND SPANKIN NEW CDS!!!!!!!!!!!! Three Days Grace, Michael Buble, BSB!!!!! SO HAPPY! And even though I've heard most of BSB's album having all the singles makes me EEEE!!!. It's so funny how all three songs are oppisites of each other, but I love them all equally. Right now I am relating heavily to Michael's single, but I'll have those lyrics at the end of this entry for your enjoyment:)

First things first, THE LEAFS. I actually got to watch the pregame tonight. Do I dare say that we might actually make the play offs this year? I just have one simple question and maybe somebody *cough cough** Stacey can help me out....Where the F did Jason Allison come from and why is he on our team??????? Agh! GO LEAFS GO!!! COME FASTER OCT 1.

It's lyrics time!

( I just haven't met you yet.. ).</div>

Tags: leafs, music

Current Location: Waterlloooo

Current Mood:

cheerful

Current Music: Lonely, Lonely-TBS

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16 September 2009 @ 01:18 am

Random, yet wonderful

JORDAN WON BIG BROTHER! THANK CHRIST!:D:D:D:D:D
WHERE was hell's Kitchen tonght??:(

Zak came to visit me today...I loves my scarborough/pickering peeps. That includes YOU Miss Stacey! I misss yooou!

Bed time now.

Lover, lover tell me this,
Passion of Conciquence,
When did the latter take the lead?

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14 September 2009 @ 01:09 am

When did the latter take the lead?

Taking Back Sunday's newest album...

How the HELL did I miss it?

I LOVE IT!

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calm

Current Music: Swing-TBS

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12 September 2009 @ 10:24 pm

She's nothin like a girl you've ever seen before...

God damn. I love this song so much and I have no idea why, there's just something about Akon's voice. My new roomate Pauline had me listening to it at first and man now I can't stop listening. My other two roomies are prolly really annoyed by now. Ah wells.

As some of you may or may not know I moved to Waterloo to attend what I am learning to be one of the greatest universities ever. I mean I guess I'm bias because it's the ONLY one I've ever been to, but they just make you feel so loved and part of something so much bigger than yourself it's amazing, I moved into my new place on Sept. 1 and it definitely took some adjusting to, but it'[s starting to feel more and more like home.the first week was a rough one, I was the only one here and I just missed home so much, but once Frosh started all was good.

Frosh was AMAZING. i met so many amazing people and learned so many crazy cheers I'm soooo happy I went to almost everything. And because of this Sean Kingston's song Fire burnin will never be the same to me again haha. I love you arts and especially my AP DRAGONS!!!!!

I'm not sure why but i decided to update to try and keep my mind off the fact that I feel like absoulute shit emotionally right now. I'm not sure what happened. I just feel like poop and writing always helps. I seem to be having deep and meaningful conversations with so many people these days. the thing I hate though is that the next day it seems like nothing happened or was accomplished. I don't know what I'm expecting to happen, but I feel such a strong connection and then nothing. I don't like it at all.

That aside I have so many wonderful things to look forward to:

NEW THREE DAYS GRACE ALBUM SEPTEMBER 22!
SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE AT THE ACC SEPTEMBER 29
!!! THE LEAFS SEASON OPENER...HELLS TO THE YES OCTOBER 1
NEW BSB CD OCTOBER 6

EEEEEEEEE!

Must stay positive. I am really super excited for classes to start and for me not to get lost when venturing off ring road please please pleaaaaase!

Current Music: Sexy Bitch- David Guetta ft Akon

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29 July 2009 @ 11:58 pm

Jason Mraz Ticket

I have an extra ticket to Jason Mraz in Toronto on August 15th, and wondered if anyone was interested??

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24 July 2009 @ 02:12 am

I know you're as surprised as I am about the second update in just as many days, but I think a new BSB single is worthy

HELLS YESSSSSSSS!!

CHECK IT OUT!

www.backstreetboys.com

it plays continuously on the main page<3 They saved me once agan.....Soldier downnn

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22 July 2009 @ 01:29 am

The One Smilin' Like The Sun...That's You.

Short and sweet tonight folks.

There's some days where I feel like this describes my life to a tee,

But other days I pray it's not true. Confusing? I hope so.

" Not everything is supposed to come true;
Some words are best unsaid;
Some love is not really love at all;
I keep everything I shared with you;
And that's enough..there's us..."

Maybe someday...

Tags: bsb, truth

Current Mood:

happy

Current Music: There's Us-BSB

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16 July 2009 @ 02:39 pm

I just had to post to talk about the amazing time I had at Just For Laughs last night. OH MAN.

Zak and I really wanted to go because we love Mark Forward We saw him at the Ajax Yuk Yuks a few weeks ago, and then when we saw that it was him AND Jon Dore we just couldn't pass it up. We got there a few hours early so we decided to find somewhere to eat. After walking down Queen street (towards the Rivoli) and after Zak pointing out every sushi restaurant on the way there that I did not want to go to haha, we decided to just eat at the Rivoli.

The burger I had there was SO good. We still had like an hour and a half before the show so we thought we'd try to get in early. And we did, and we got to see the behind the scenes to the JOn Dore Show. It was so epic. It makes me so sad to think that show is cancelled. Replaced by Keys to the VIP....SERIOUSLY? Man...

To explain how funny the whole night was would be impossible. but all you need to know is that it was absoulutely amazing.

To top the night off we're on the bus on the way home and this 80 year old woman's phone rings and all you hear is..."you spin my head right round, right round when you go down, when you go down, down..." I could not stop laughing.

Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed this random update. I'm sorry I don't update more, I just don't have any motivation. I really do enjoy ready your entries though:)

Current Music: Adam Carolla

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14 May 2009 @ 12:52 pm

Ever since I was young your word is the word that always won.
Worry and wake the ones you love.
A phone call I'd rather not receive.
Please use my body while I sleep.
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep,
Kept clean and they will let you breathe.

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.

I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.

I'm not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now and you will always be around.
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you're sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.
Does anybody remember back when you were very young.
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.

Although I have already written my goodbyes, this song always reminds me of you and how I wish I could've saved you.

Instead, I will be honouring you forever.

I love you Uncle Joe.

Current Mood:

calm

Current Music: Adam Carolla

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28 April 2009 @ 11:59 pm

I cannot wait to get out of here.

I can't stand inconsiderate people, who instead apologizing for their short comings, just make up constant excuses and LIE.

It's even worse when the things are so small and shouldn't mean a thingm but of course Ms. Dramatic has to make them huge and it just makes me so incredibly fucking angry that I sometimes wish you would just grow up and realize it's not all about you.

Jesus Christ I just don't get how some people can be so stupid.

Four more months....

God help me.

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05 March 2009 @ 12:09 pm

GUESS THE BAND! MEME - snagged from</u>

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1. Open a music player.
2. Go to 'all music'/'library'.
3. Hit shuffle/repeat/randomise.
4. Find photos of the first 20 artists/bands that come up (no repeats and no cheating).
5. Have people guess who the artists/bands are.
6. Paste this in your journal and do it too, so I can have fun guessing as well.

( La la la... )

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06 February 2009 @ 10:09 pm

Think what you will about the Backstreet Boys,

but DAMN....has getting healthy done Nick Carter gooddddd.

See userpic if you don't get it.

I've also become addicted to HIMYM again. God I love you NPH.

Current Location: Home

Current Mood:

calm

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04 February 2009 @ 05:17 pm

I've always wondered how is it is that whenever Kelly Clarkson is releasing a new album, either her debut single or one of her singles speaks directly to my life at the current time.

I believe stooperstacey bought me Breakaway for my birthday Four? years ago and "Behind These Hazel Eyes" was exactly how I felt when Matt had broken up with me a week prior.

As of right now, "My Life Would Suck Without You" is Andrew and I to a tee. And considering we just got back together like a month or so ago, the song is just perfect, so thank you Kelly! Can't wait for the album to be released!

( Cause we belong together.. )

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14 January 2009 @ 12:21 pm

So it looks as though I haven't updated in over a month and I figured if I'm stuck inside anyway, I might as well make an actual update.

My last few entries have certainly been somewhat vague/depressing, but that's because I didn't really know how to explain how I was feeling, and what I could understand, was random anyway. To make an extremely long and complicated story short Andrew and I broke up for about a months time. It was hard to say we were broken up though when absolutely nothing between us had changed except for our title. This is was obviously not getting us anywhere so I confronted him about it and decided to start moving on as best I could. During this time I learned a lot about myself and gained a lot of strength. The thought of losing me forever, however, terrified Andrew and we are now back together. I know it's the right thing. I love him more than anything and I think we're both happier than we've ever been, so yay! So much for a short story eh?

In other news, I still don't have a steady job and I'm feeling the effects of it. Living on a very tight budget is definitely interesting. I'm almost out of debt though and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

The Leafs. Oh the Leafs. I didn't think it was possible, but Vesa Toskala actually aggravates me more than Andrew Raycroft did. He does not seem to understand the concept of guarding the entire net. Bah. And it also helps a goalie when he has you know, DEFENCE! Man, I can hardly watch the games anymore because they pain me so. I'm going to the Leafs Skate on feb. 16 and if Vesas on my skate, god help him. Other than the Staj meister I have no problem viocing my opinios to the players haha.

Between the combination of mass amounts of snow and strep throat I've barely been able to leave the condo and it sucks. Then again, I don't where I'd go, but hey, just having the option would be great. Oh the joys of living in Canada, not that I'd live anywhere else. Woo juniors!:D So on my day of staying in I've decided to listen to BSB, man I love them. Their new album is set for 2010 and holy shiz I'm so excited. It'll also be interesting to see what Nick's new solo CD is going to sound like compared to Now or Never as it was pretty much crap haha.

But I just realized this entry has been one big rambling so when I have more intersting things to talk about I shall post!

Ahh! I'm going to be 22 innn....19 days! AHHHHHHHHH!

...looking back on things I was trying to be someone, I played my part
and kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart<3

Brian showing me his heart:)
Photo Credit: Kyla Sheridan.

Current Mood:

groggy

Current Music: The Answer to Our Life-Backstreet Boys

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09 December 2008 @ 01:20 am

When I Close my Eyes...

Just because it's more therapeutic this way I'm going to type out these lyrics as I listen.
It's amazing how these are almost true for me. The ones the hit home are bolded for your pleasure.

Feet on the ground
But I can't run
Drowning the noise inside my head
Who is this (Wo)man that I've become
It's killing me to see myself
How do you learn how to forgive?
When deep down inside you can't forget?
With all that I regret...

I pray for the first time, in a long time
The lights fade away...

Finally I'm waking up
I feel like I could let you go
Say everything I wanted to say
I'm okay with being alone
When I close my eyes
When I close my eyes
I'm alive

Never was sure, but now I am
This was the choice I had to make
Maybe I'll neverunderstand
Sometimes you got to make mistakes

Finally I'm waking up
I feel like I could let you go
Say everything I wanted to say
I'm okay with being alone
Finally I'm facing up
I feel like I could let it show
I know I could walk away
I'm okay with being alone
When I close my eyes
When I close my eyes

How do you know where to go when you go away?
When I close my eyes
How do you know when's it's over?

I see for the first time in a long time
Believe me when I say..
Finally I'm waking up
I feel like I could let you go
Say everything I wanted to say
I'm okay with being alone
Finally I'm facing up
I feel like I could let it show
I know I could walk away
I'm okay with being alone
When I close my eyes
When I close my eyes

But really you shouldn't believe me at all because I feel this way 5% of the time, if that</3

Oh yeah, Thanks BSB<3

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